"Everybody Knows" is the second single to be released off Better Mess - LP . It's a serious take on the story also told in the first single, "My Boyfriend." "My Boyfriend" is all about flaunting your confidence and self-worth in front of someone who thought they could belittle and take advantage of you. "Everybody Knows" reaches beneath that confidence to reveal a deep level of disappointment, having to ask for the apology you think you deserve but were never given.
I was so hurt by the way things ended with a "friend" of mine. By the betrayal, the negativity - and of course - my lack of closure. So while sitting in a coffee shop on Hunington Avenue, I started writing down the apology note in his voice that I felt I deserved. The note was finished that night in my apartment as the song, "Everybody Knows."
After the falling out of any relationship, the people directly involved are not the only ones affected. A whole COMMUNITY can get involved. The circles of friends you shared, the people you met through one another, the acquiantances you now recognize on the street - word gets to them when the word is shocking enough. Wherever I went it seemed like people were approaching me, shaking their heads baffled by the stories, and without fail would say something along the lines of "He thinks that nobody knows. Everybody knows." And the message was starting to make its way to his brain that he couldn't say hi to my boss-ass friends anymore.
"And when I walk into the room I'm seeing pictures of you
Painted on the faces of your friends that I knew.
And when I walk into the party - their eyes are allows firing me down.
Everybody knows who I am
Everybody knows what I've done
And it's clear nobody here
Wants an explanation."
The video follows our apology note in his perspective 90% of the time - the camera follows him and I both entering the same party, all eyes on us in different ways and for different reasons. But the attention turns on him in the end, and our party of gazing individuals becomes an ARMY versus one (on the dancefloor *haay*). The video is a symbol of strength, an admittance that something was not your fault. It is important to know that placing blame is not a negative thing - maybe we just need to rewire and think of it as placing responsibility. I was not responsible for calling people names, I wasn't responsible for damaging public property, I wasn't responsible for so much and yet I made excuses that it wasn't his responsibility. If it wasn't anyone's responsibility, how do we learn? How do we remain honest with ourselves about what happened? How do we grow? This song and video is about staring down something that cannot control you, to lift your chin up and smile knowing that truth and authenticity - goodness - has the support of thousands while evil limply holds the support of one.